{Kinda think}

السلام عليكم




Hey people earthlings.
Alhamdulillah, me still have a chance to let deep all inside; out here.
Emmm 😞


Hati oh Hati.
{malas nak berpuisi}
*giggle*

Sekali lagi kau terpaut dengan seseorang yang kau
agungkan tapi kau taktahu perasaan seseorang itu
memang tak bisa dimiliki
yakin tak bisa mencintai
sukar tak bisa diketahui

I just hate to start all over again
but I have to.
This is life.
People come, and go.
We were too dumb to have it as suprise.

yeah.
sekali lagi kau salah dalam
menyukai
mencintai
memiliki
seseorang.

Sakit, tak mampu dihuraikan sebab semua pernah lalui benda yang sama.
Menyukai seseorang yang tidak dapat membalas kembali.
Mencintai seseorang yang akan meninggalkan kamu sendiri.
Memiliki seseorang yang tidak kekal abadi.

Hmmm;
sukar untuk dijelaskan bukan.
Orang kata; mencintai seseorang yang tulus mencintai kita.
Tulus?
Ikhlas?
susah untuk kita dapat manusia seperti ini di mukabumi.
kenapa?
jawapan di sini.

Manusia sering disakiti,
disebabkan itu muncullah kumpulan-kumpulan iblis yang akan
merosakkan ketulusan itu.

{memainkan perasaan}
{menduakan perasaan}
siapa?

{player; playboy/girl; playcrocodile}

Yeah, lumrah hidup kita akan salah
menyukai
mencintai
memiliki
Seseorang itu kerna itu dinamakan
hidup.

Mestilah dipenuhi dengan pancaroba; dugaan; cubaan
kalau semua itu tidak wujud bagaimana perkataan
tabah
kuat
setia
akan tercipta bukan?

Inshaa Allah, tak semua manusia jahat; keji.
Ada sebab jika mereka begitu.
semua yang berlaku pasti bersebab.
Maafkanlah mereka yang telah menyakitimu,
usah didendam atau dipendam perbuatan itu
kerana
ajal maut menanti kita
hanya menunggu
dengan penuh sabar;

'kinda think'
yeah, masih berfikir.
selemah-lemah diri ini, tuhan masih menduga.
beri lebih banyak cubaan;dugaan

masih keliru mengapa manusia di luar sana
masih mencaci//membenci
jika diri ini mahu
bahagia.
mungkin belum tiba waktunya dan mungkin diri ini patut
menanti
sampai ianya
kembali

dua tiga malam berturut-turut, aku bermimpi seorang {hamba allah}.
senyum tak terkata;
bahagia tak terkira;
simpulan senyuman dia, hanya Allah yang tahu betapa indahnya ia.
pelik, kenapa masih dia?
masih ragu-ragu dengan mimpi itu.
sukar untuk diceritakan.
{long story-line}

Mainan mimpi atau sebuah petanda?

jika mainan mimpi,
mohon dihentikan.
Sakit ini perit.
bukan mudah untuk dikawal.

jika ia sebuah petanda
berharap petanda itu tidak
mengundang
perkara yang buruk.

Ameen.
doakan;
Raihana Damia Binti Ruszaidi
tabah dalam harungi
semua dugaan;cubaan dalam dunia ini
kerana
semuanya sudah tertulis di tangan takdir.

{you dont have to love someone because the're perfect;
because you should love them in spite of the fact that they're not}

Senyum 😁

You smoke? Astagfirullah.

السلام عليكم





Hey people earthlings.
Muslim nor muslimah out there.
Hihi, cigarette?

In Malay, rokok?
Rokok, apa yang anda tahu dengan rokok?
Hm, hisap hembus hisap hembus betul?

Nak ke roh kita pun berlaku macam sebatang rokok tu.
Allah hisapkan kita ke dunia ni dengan free no charge, but kita pula buang peluang tu,
bagi Allah hembuskan kita pulang ke Alam Barzakh.

Kenapa perlu buang duit untuk benda HARAM tu.
Rokok itu Haram.

Masih tak faham dengan fakta tu, susahlah kalau macam ni.
Tak terfikirkah kita, sebenarnya Israel dan angkatannya terus-teruskan berusaha
cipta benda Haram tu supaya umat Islam sesat.
Sesat dalam genggaman dia dan Syaitan.
Supaya benda haram itu akan tujuh keturunan dalam badan
kita, anak kita, cucu kita, cicit kita.
Darah semua keturunan kita diperbuat/dicipta
sebahagian dari benda yang Haram.


Rokok/Shisha bersamaan dengan arak, dengan khinzir.
Sama ja.

Guys,
rokok tak diperlukan untuk menunjukkan bahawa korang
macho?
hilang stess?
ketagih?
tolonglah, itu bukan alasan yang bernas untuk
mempertahankan/membela diri.

Kalau Haram tetap Haram.

Yeah, ada seorang hamba Islam ni pernah bertanya kepada seseorang.
"Haha, rokok ko kata haram tapi asal aku tengok para ustaz atau ulamak ada jgk yg merokok?"

Haha, yeah nilah manusia jenis ketagih tahap dewi.
Fikir jauh.
Manusia semua sama, sama-sama kekurangan dalam ilmu pengetahuan.
Kalau tahu, kenapa tak tegur dia untuk menjauhkan diri dari berbuat perkara Haram tu.
Dapat pahala free bukan?


Jika mereka mengambil sesuatu makanan, minuman atau sesuatu yang dihisap, dihidu dan disedut yang boleh memabukkan, maka perbuatan itu adalah jelas haram. Termasuklah yang mengandungi racun yang menyebabkan kematian. Aku tetap menganggap (menfatwakan) ia adalah haram. Allah swt mengharamkan apapun jenis pembunuhan kerana pembunuh bermakna membunuh diri sendiri.
-Imam Al-Syafi'e-

Orang yang menghisap rokok, doanya tidak akan didengari oleh Allah kerana mulutnya telah menghisap sesuatu yang telah dijamin Haram.
-Ustaz Ahmad Dazuki-

Sedut asap rokok, ia akan bercampur dengan darah, darah akan bercampur dengan air mani.
Buat cahaya mata, maaf untuk berkata, cahaya mata itu telah terbina dari benda
yang Haram.
-Ustaz Don Danial-


Rokok memang mampu menghilangkan stress sebab apa?
sebab kita akan terasa mabuk dan automatiklah lupakan segala
masalah dan pancaroba yang melanda.
Itu bukan jalan yang terbaik.


Doa'lah pada Tuhan, dia Maha Mendengar bukan.
Inshaa Allah, masalah/dugaan itu akan hilang atau kurang dialami.


Memang ajal maut Allah dah tetapkan sejak kita janin lagi,
bila tegur sahaja seseorang tentang rokok, alasan mesti sebegini bukan.
Allah tentukan sebab dia Maha Mengetahui.
Ajal Maut anda selepas anda menghisap benda Haram itu.
Disebabkan itu juga, tolong jangan mudah mempermudahkan tentang ajal maut ini
disebabkan Satu Batang Rokok.



Berubahlah demi kebaikan.
Ada pelbagai cara boleh kita ikuti untuk menghilangkan ketagihan.
Doktor-doktor telah mengeluarkan ubat-ubatan untuk
benda Haram ini.
Berusahalah jikalau tidak mahu
ANAK.
CUCU.
CICIT.
dan selain itu menjadi
sebahagian daripada Haram.



Biar ia keluar dari perut, janin yang suci.
Suci dari benda-benda Haram itu.



SEMOGA BERUBAH PARA UMAT ISLAM SEKALIAN.
(:
Yang baik datang dari Tuhan, yang buruk memang datang dari
DIRI SENDIRI.

Sekian sahaja.

Asif Jiddan to HIM

السلام عليكم

Hey there.
 11/12/13
Alhamdulillah, Im still alive on this date.

Alhamdulillah...




Hmm, I'em tired enough.
Tired of everything that called 'love'
Alhamdulillah for what happen today, I can move-on even Im not with anybody.
I love being like this.
The past teach me alot.Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday, hihi
Allah knew the best.

Sometimes, with remembering the past, I could change.
To a new me, to a better me.
With HIS power, Im changing to a good Raihana Damia,
Inshaa Allah, Ameen.

My past was too worst, only certain ppl know about this
but I had determined to myself that I dont want to change to the old me, to a bad past of me.
Im wanted to change
to a good Damia.


To be a good daughter for my mum, dad.
I have to achieve on my ambition first.
To be a physician surgeon.
Promise to myself.


Someone had give me some advice.
That ppl said...

"Putus cinta ?"

"Hmmm."

"Mcm nih lah."

"Kalo ikut umur sekarang. Nak bercinta tuh tak penting."

"Tapi tak salah kalau kita nak cinta org."

"Sebab benda tuh fitrah. "

"So. Kalau dah bercinta. Then putus."

"Jgn hampa."

"Sebab ramai lagi org kat dunia nih."

"Kita islam kan ?"

"So. Letakkan Allah no 1."

"Jgn jadikan pasangan kita tuh no 1."

"Kadang-kadang kita pandai cakap. Kita sayang Allah."

"Tapi kita tak sedar yg kita dah letak dia no 2."

"Sebab tuh kita senang kecewa bila kita putus cinta."

"Kalau betul kita syg kat seseorang,"

"Simpan perasaan tuh."

"Doa kat Allah."

"Sebab kalau kita betul-betul cinta kat Allah."

"Ins shaa Allah. Kita akan tenang. Dan senang utk kita dapat cinta yg sebenar."

"Ingat. Jangan kita rosak sebab cinta."

"Sebab cinta nih boleh jadi baik. Tapi bnyk yg rosak sbb cinta."

"Jgn tersilap langkah."

"Banyakkan berdoa. Tambah ilmu dengan baca buku-buku ilmiah."

"In shaa Allah. Mia akan paham maksud cinta sebenar."

"Menilai seseorang bukan kerana paras rupa ? Tapi itulah yang acap kali kita lakukan, mencari teman yang punya rupa paras yang menarik dahulu. tak percaya? Nilai sahaja diri kita di laman sosial kini

"Ulama' kata " manusia tidak akan pernah belajar bersyukur, selagi mana dia tidak hilang sesuatu nikmat itu " "Bersyukurlah selalu.. "

Alhamdulillah. You're right
Maybe Allah separated us from someone because he is not suitable or it may not be the best for us so try to be thankful for what is given by this great servant of Allah.

Inshaa Allah.
HE had done the best plan for us.
so keep calm and waiting for it.
Great things will always comes.

The-End.

Move-on

السلام عليكم



Hey.
Guess what, Im moving on. Alhamdulillah.
I can move-on cause I had met someone new, Inshaa Allah someone loyal will be.
His name was secretly, starting with A, end up with D.
Dear girl, I dislike on sharing mine, hihi so back off yeah.
Alhamdulillah, hopefully he was a good, loyal & handsome man will be.
Ameen.😱



Okay, lets go.
Past will only be my past.
Hm, maybe he arent my 'jodoh' so I should accept the fact, he had fall in love with someone new, someone that totally lucky, hey girl, take care of him for me.
Do sing a song, do text him, do call him.
Do everything that favor him, remember if he was heartless sometime, just ignore it and stay loving him.
He was totally loyal man eventhough he leave me now.
I dont care, he was not my mate. He's yours maybe?
But make sure, for every seconds, minutes, hours nor days, let his smile stay seductive
cause its was my favourite things on this earth.
dont worry madam, promise you I will never come back to his life,
he hurts me a lots.

no-one-had-do-what-he-had-do

but just stay loving him, how hurt he is, how damn he is, how suck he is
just love him perfectly
yeah, I knew, you must be thinking that I still have a feelings on him, yes oh yes
I do have, but now Im trying to be loyal to this man

A man,
that I doesnt know him yet.
A man,
that I doesnt know everything about him.
A man,
have a wonderful oval eyes.
A man,
that do have a seductive smile too.
A man,
that was a tall boyfriend to me.
A man,
that will be a good Imam, Inshaa Allah.

Dont scare, stay loyal to Asraf.
yeah, I had mention his name.
You love him, take  good care of him okay.
May have long-lasting relationship.

Eh, me overthinking, over-acting.
That was supposed to be an h-obby for hawa.
me?
if you dont know me, dont judge me by reading this story.
me,
desperate?
over-acting?
naughty?
weird?
silly?
ugly?


even Im doing that suck stuff things, I do grateful on myself.
We have an adorable life so do enjoy it.
If you cant forget the past,
stay pray and do do'a to Allah.
I had do it and I had success on forgetting him.
Alhamdulillah.

Thats all guys,
done reading, keep hoping and praying for
Raihana Damia
to have
a
new
successful
life
then.
Ameen.
Bye-bye.

Weird feelings (:

بسم الله


Assalamualaikum (:
Here we go.
See the title above, yeah all around was turning turtle.
Imma...

No one will understand how much its hurt. No one knows, no one care.

No-bo-dy.

Life...

I feel nothing on this earth, I do grateful for everything I have but sometimes everything makes my mind run riot.

Its hurt when we cant have someone that we loved.

Its hurt when no one care about you.

Its hurt when youre always being ignored by someone you love.

Its hurt when you cant have a great life.

Everything incomplete.

Nothing perfect.

I do know bout that.

Sometimes I do need your attention. Im seek -.-

But I know who I am, Imma just an ordinary, weird and dumb girl.

Im nobody right.

Imma seek in everything.

Sometimes you hurt me enough.

Imma down enough.

Continue to treat me like Im nobody.

Im okay. Truthly...

Im wishing that I could have a perfect life.

Im wishing I could smile broadly and its wasnt fake anymore.

Im wishing that something that I dislike to happen, couldnt happen but I cant stop the fate.

I cant cause Im nobody.

Im just Imperfect me.

Hopeless.

Lifeless.

._.

I cant go it alone.

I need you, just you.

Its okay if it couldnt happen, maybe I deserve with someone else.

I could mean to them a lot someday and it maybe you or not...

-.-

Stop mia stop.

I hate this feelings.

A feeling that cant fade away.

Huh, Im tired of you act.

Too tired enough.

If youre think that Im mean to you, try to treat me well but if Im not.

Try to be honest and let me go.

Let me free from this hurt.

I need some freedom someway.

Please, I beg you.

Be-Honest.

Forgiveness.

Hellooooooo. :)

Yeah.

Rindu nak share story dekat sini.

Kalau boleh, problems Mia pun Mia nak luahkan but its too public here. 

:o

ugh, everything like turning turtle right now.

Mia kekadang tk larat nak hadapi semua ni, tapi nak buat cemana kan?

This is faith.

Its too hurt when someone tht you love is ignoring you.

But I've accept it.

Its complicated right?

Hmph, idk.

Hey you.

A person that staring at this page.

Im sorry for what I've done at you.

Maybe you dont know my personality, maybe you're thinking tht Im playing your heart or you're thinking that Im playgirl.

Im so so so sorry. :'|

you should know.

Girl need attention.

Girl need to feel being love everything.

They need attention to be with. Being happy everyday with you. 

Beside you. 

Sharing their problem and everything with you. 

Everything with their lovely person.

Im sorry if our personality and attitude were not same as I thought.

Truthly, I miss the old us.

I thought that we're just friend or both of us would be Bestfriend.

But something change it.

:::::

The old of us.

We're happy.

Smiling non-stop everytimes, enjoying our day everyday.

When we met for the first time, I think you're a bad guys but Im wrong. 

My thought was definately wrong.

You're a nice guys.

We're a good friend until the honesty begin.

You've express me about your feelings at me and everything changed after that.

No more friend between us and its goes to love.

The fine love was totally okay until it was destroy by myself.

Im sorry.

Im quiet bad if you know me more.

Im sorry for everything okay.

Forget and forgive me more.

I still care everything bout' you.

May you happy with your new life, guys.
#R

;]

Thats all for now viewers.

May you guys enjoy with this short story.

Sorry if its too dumb bored.

Haha, bye x.x

Te' Amo.

Helloooo there. :)

Too bored here.
Here we go.
I want to share something.
......

You.
Why you dont reply my text?
Why you dont answer my call?
Why you cant spend anytime with me?

You make me like you at first time.
You make me feel guilty.
You make me ashamed when meet you.
You make me happy.
You make me sad.
You make me fall in love again.
You make my world shine again.
You make me feel complete.
You make me feel comfortable when I'm with you.
You make me feel anything.
Only you.

Imissyou.
Please...
Dont make my life dark again.
I need your love to shine my life back.

Dont you realize that I always make a time with you.
Waiting for your text.
Waiting for your call.
Waiting for you to meet me.
Waiting for anything abt you.

You know, I realize tht you never care abt me.
Never understand my feelings.
Never think positive on me.
Never.Ever.Ever.

You know?
I always think positive on you.
I always think that you're busy with your study even your friend say that you're  not.
I just thinking that you just make a time with another girl. Your scandal. Your crush or maybe your lovely ex..
I hate it. x.x

I hate when my feelings control me.
I hate when my feelings wanna change to other boy.
I hate all abt it.

Please..
Understand me..
Make any action of it.
You know, I cant live without your love.
I always keep my promise at you tht I'll not leave you.
I keep your promise too.
Remember that.
Okay, I'm tired. x.x
I hope I can meet you tomorrow and talk abt this.
Bye.

Our story.

Helloooo.

Yea, alhamdulillah harini Mia berkesempatan jugak untuk berceloteh dalam bloggie yang sudah lama dibiarkan ni.
Okay, kali ni. Mia nak cerita tentang someone
yang Mia sayang.
Okay, kepada yang sudah tahu. Tahniah!
Yang belum tahu, akan timbul beribu tanda soal didalam fikiran anda sekarang.
Okay, firstly Mia nak cerita tentang diaaa.
My sweetheart </3
Orang yang tak jemu buat kita senyum.
Orang yang tak jemu melayan diri kita.
Orang yang tak jemu menyayangi kita.

Okay.
Sebelum tu, Mia nak berterima kasih sangat2 dekat orang yang banyak membantu Mia iaitu Sarah Sazlin, Mimie Tikah, Syada, Awien, Najwa and so all.

Diorang banyak beri sedikit sebanyak nasihat untuk Mia stay
sayangkan dia..
Thanks you all. :>

Okay!
Finally, bermulalah cerita ni.
Mia terserempak dengan dia di suatu tempat xoxo
Then, time tu serious nama dia, rupa dia, apapun tentang dia Mia taktahu and lepas kawan kawan cerita abt diri dia.
Barulah Mia start kenal dia.
Malam first kenal dia tu, memang banyaklah kejadian terjadi.
Mia pun tak sangkakan semua tu terjadi.
First, Mia kena marah dgn cg sbb smthng.
Second, Mia terjatuh dkt tg sbb tersepak something. (sakit gila)
Third, Mia terserempak dgn dia dalam keadaan diri Mia yang tersangatlah moody time tu.
Dia selalu ada, bila Mia tengah sedih, bengang mahupun gembira.
Time tu, dia datang and ckp.
'Hye Mia , okay tak harini? Kenapa muka nampak mcm baru lepas kena marah jer'
Okay.. dia macam tahu tahu jer time tu.
Then, Mia jawablah okay. Takda apapun yang perlu xoxo tahu. Mia just headache.
Time tu memang dia berusaha nak tahu even baru kenal, then malam tu first text dgn dia, Mia ceritalah apa yang berlaku.
Then, he's so pity and caring abt me tht time.
Thats why, I starts fall in love with him.
Hihi :3
okay okay, angau pulok.
I remember that night, dia nyanyi lagu Fall for you by Secondhand Serenade.
Ya Allah, memang merdu and lepas habis nyanyi tu, dia cakap lagu tu dia nyanyi mmg ikhlas dri hati, bukan sekadar nyanyian tp disebalik tu luahan.
Terharu sgt time tu.
Now, dia agak buzy.
Text tk reply even call. Memang tak angkatlah jawabnya.
Tapi its okay, I always understand you.
Haha.
-.- melebih lebih pulak Mia ni kan.
Sorry if Mia ter'over dalam story ni. xD
If korang kenal dia, korang mungkin akan tergoda jugak tp sebelum tu langkah mayat Mia dulu okay.
He's mine. Always mine. Only mine.
Haritu dia pernah cakap time otp.
'Life is like writing with a pen. You can cross out your past but you cant erase it. I hope I will be your past, your new lastlonger love and be yours forever. Iloveyou'
'My heart is addicted to you'
Okay. :'> memang tak terkatalah time otp tu, Mia just balas Hmmm.
Sbb mmg tak terkata, terkedu. Tak boleh nak cakap apa.
Hanya mampu menjerit di dalam hati. :>
Okay.
Mia selalu pegang janji dia iaitu.
'Hati xoxox sudah terkunci dengan Raihana Damia bt Ruszaidi, dan tak akan berubah dekat orang lain.'
Okay, i keep your promise.
Dont leave me like all my ex done it to me.
Okay, thts all.
(: Maaf jika terlebih over/angau dalam bloggie ni :)
Enjoy my story, thanks.
Didnt enjoy it, thanks also because lend your eyes to read it.
Okay, byebye.


Thankyou for reading!

I'm back.

Assalamualaikum.

Great!

Alhamdulillah, Mia dah berjaya mengembalikan password -.- even dah pernah putus asa sbb lama gila try dari tahun lepas.

Haha, whtvr lh . Janji Mia dah berjaya halau labah labah serta sarangnya dkt bloggie ni.

Okay.

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim...
Tak ada banyak idea nak cerita..

 Just nak story kehidupan di maktab pada tahun 20'13.

Seronok, Mia dah kenal ramai kawan kawan yg gempak, senior perempuan yg penyayang even garang sikit ;) and cikgu cikgu yg banyak sumbangkn ilmu dkt Mia.

Mia rasa sesangatlh bersyukur selepas 1 tahun lebih berada di maktab ni.

Masalah demi masalah datang, Mia dah redha dgn semua tu. Itu semua dugaan kita sbgai hamba Allah kan?

Dia akan duga sekuat kemampuan kita. Tak pernah lebih dri tu.

Ohyea, sebelum terlupa tahun ni umur Mia sudah meningkat 14 tahun iaitu formtwo. Means baru berjinak-jinak menjadi Senior kpd Junior. :o

Haha,  I dont enjoy it.

Mia memang dah naik pangkat jadi Senior tp tak rasa mcm Senior sbb ada sebab sebab yg tertentu yg membuatkan Mia rasa macam tu.

Pasti banyak tanda soal di fikiran korang semua kan? Hihi.

Okay okay, fyi Junior yang Mia kenal dkt sini telah di'interview masuk dan telah succes. Lalu mereka mereka ini diberikan kesempatan dan diterima sign in ke alam Asrama, MRSM Transkrian.

Bermacam macam undeng undeng yg perlu diorang pelajari tetapi malang sungguh, disebabkan ke'egoan mereka dan kenakalan mereka, mereka sedikit mengecewakan senior senior di maktab ini.

Tak semua, segelintir.

Mia bukan nak ckp Mia ni tak macam diorang. Mia pun dulu jahat, nakal, kurang ajar and macam macam lagilah tapi sekurang kurangnya Mia dah berubah dan dah bermaaf pun dgn senior yg Mia nakal tu.

Sekurang kurangnya batch Mia ikut cakap. Kami ikut undeng undeng.

Kami beri salam, kami tak main jeling jeling, kami tak curi port, kami tak bercakap kasar mahupun ckp 'hang' 'aku'.

Kami sedaya upaya buat yg terbaik dkt senior kami yg diatas.

Tujuan Mia bukan nak memburukkan, tetapi ini hanya nasihat atau luahan Mia dan teman teman. Kami pun ada perasaan adik adik.

Untuk yang dah terbaca, maaf yeah.

Ini pesanan..

Hanya sekadar pesanan, bukan kutukan.

Lagi satu, kami harap sgt korang tak update status memaki hamun senior atasan. mengutuk mahupun memburukkanlah.

Even Senior atasan korang tu jahat, teruk sikit dia tetap senior hampa okay :)

Balas je senyuman dkt diorang. Mohon sangat.

Okay? ;>

Panjang lebar dah Mia berceloteh.

Sampai disini sahaja leteran Mia. xD

Byebye and Assalamualaikum visitors.